— Black Telephone (Richard Siken)
Anonymous asked: can you just talk all about natasha romanoff? her backstory, her history, her relationships, just everything? she's so great and i just wanna hear how you tell her story
Long Ass Post about why I love Natasha Romanoff (I’ve kept it as spoiler-free as possible by describing things in broad terms)
I’m gonna talk mainly about her Marvel Cinematic Universe incarnation, because I haven’t actually read the comic versions of her, though I have a faint idea of her story ^^
I love Natasha Romanoff- in hindsight, it was really a good thing I didn’t watch Iron Man 2 until after I watched the Avengers, so I never went through that stage of “ugh what an underused role” all the critics had lol.
I first started really paying attention to her in the Avengers because of that scene where she was the Clarice Starling to Hannibal Lector’s Loki, because it was there we started learning about her past. That imo, was an amazing scene.
"I’ve got red on my ledger."
I liked it that although her past is still somewhat unknown, Whedon and the Russos have let it slip that it’s intensely disturbing- the impression I got was that she was brainwashed from the start to be a remorseless killer and a monster. (Her response to Bruce that she “started early”, the way she reacted when Loki started viciously tearing into her about “Drakov’s daughter" and the "hospital fire”, she tells Steve about “knowing who’s lies she’s been telling.”)
Therefore, who she is now is an attempt to atone, to unlearn that. What really strengthens this beautifully is how the Avengers and Winter Soldier made it a point to display how this doesn’t make her “good” and “moral” the way Steve is, or the uncomplicated straightforwardness of Thor. She’ll no longer sell her skills to the highest bidder or murder young children, but her morality is still a lot more cynical and gray than Steve’s. It’s clear her idea of when the ends justify the means goes beyond Steve’s metaphorical line. And that she will never fully be honest, because her inherent skill set requires her to be duplicitous- her emotional reactions are calculated on a level others aren’t. (That’s why I really loved her scene with Loki- as I’ve mentioned in other posts, mirroring is really effective. In that scene, I really felt Loki knew she was just like him, sensing this warped kinship and dragging it out so he could throw it in her face as a way of regaining some power because of his own internal self-loathing.)
"Love is for children."
As I mentioned in another post, I love how Natasha isn’t written with a clear love interest, because I think that fits her character best. How does someone who says she knows what it’s like to be unmade, who’s been taught to use her emotions as a tool all her life fall in love that easily, in the uncomplicated way people whose emotions flow naturally do? She doesn’t. I love it that there is no scene of her swooning into Steve or Clint’s arms or losing all her inhibitions. Because what so many Hollywood movies do is make it that “look! this sexy woman kicks butt!” but she inevitably succumbs to the male hero’s charm or whatever. That inevitably, at the end of the day, the woman needs a man. And I am so glad they didn’t do that with Natasha because it gives credence to her character background as a spy extremely skilled in manipulating people with her emotions. She does care for people, but she is far more guarded in how she shows it.
And that’s why I love her relationships with Clint and Steve are deep bonds that resist a neat characterisation as “romantic” or “platonic”. It not only makes her credible as a master spy, but highlights that she’s Natasha Romanoff, the Black Widow first and foremost, not a love interest. (And this is really the way all women should be- but sadly aren’t- written in Hollywood. If they’re in love with another character, they should be written as “women in love" not "love interests of _____”)
— Things my therapist told me today that almost made me burst out into tears. I need to remember this more often. (via betterfailings)
do you ever just realize you’re almost an adult and you have no money